Showing posts with label poverty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poverty. Show all posts

Thursday, June 3, 2021

Dream

 撲來撲去為咗食,唔食又唔得,食好似喺人生唯一嘅目標同娛樂,撚多啲其他嘢就已經成為幻想妄想甚至思覺失調,撚嚟撚去用埋念力都得唔到,失落到又開始肚餓同口痕,又要再撲來去又要再食,原來人。。。就喺一團食物。

I have been running around for food, I cannot live without food, it seems like my goal of life and only entertainment are food. I usually turn into a constantly fantisizing delusional psycho when I think outside of food. I can only kick and punch in my mind because I get completely tied up in reality. Sometimes even my mind is controlled because I get tortured for not thinking what "they" want. My dream is dead, my life is over. Then I get hungry, have cravings and I need to again run around for food. No time nor energy to think more than food. Human........ is a blob of food. 

Friday, May 7, 2021

Help!!!

Today, the psychotronic weapon continued to contract the muscles and skin on my right face around my eye and scalp, remotely. 4 days in a row. Please pray for the attacks to stop permanently and God to punish the attackers. Please ask God to give me back what I lost because of them, multiple folds. Please pray to God to protect me, keep me healthy including my skin. Please ask God to give me flawless, youthful, smooth and clear skin, especially on my face and nobody can take that away. Because the attackers have been disturbing my sleeps every day,  please ask God to give me good quality sleeps every single day. In Jesus Christ Mighty Name. Thank you and God bless. 

Note: The voice of the girl from upstairs was in the game/ weapon, screamed loudly to disturb my sleep.  This girl (who broke into my place all the time, caused me to lose at least 40000HKD including my laptop, possibly my job, and killed over 20 of my edible plants with the helps of her friends) also made noise by hammering right above me on their floor/ my ceiling in my bedroom and when I went to bathroom. She followed where I went inside my apartment and did the hammerings right above me. It is very likely that she also own a psychotronic weapon to attack me. Just now, she was making some noise upstairs and my right arm was jerking. The other possibility is she was trying to cover up for the real attackers and made noise at the same time as the attack. Yesterday I heard the girl's voice speaking perfect English from upstairs sounded like reporting to someone about what I did in my apartment. After I busted her stealing my info, she left her place from upstairs right away. 

MY WISHES

SONGS THAT HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY HEAVENLY FATHER

Monday, May 3, 2021

睇虛

真人SHOW 偽人SHOW

收費SHOW NO SHOW

我嘅思想生活喺非戲真做

你揭我私隱就你幫我交租

LIVE SHOW  FAKE SHOW

PAID SHOW NONE SHOW

MY LIFE'S REAL THOUGH

GIVE ME A CASH INFLOW

MY WISHES

SONGS THAT HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY HEAVENLY FATHER

Monday, April 26, 2021

毒癮

 你成日又煙又酒咁胃痛有咩出奇炙?

咩又煙又酒呀?我從來都唔煙唔酒嫁噃。你噏乜春呀?

成日成咋人圍住你食煙,你又冇工開要執埋啲發咗酵嘅垃圾食,仲唔喺又煙又酒?

喺噃喺噃。鬼叫佢毒牙頂硬上喇!

You smoke and drink all the time, what's so surprising about having stomach aches?

I never smoke or drink in my life, what the hell are you talking about?

There're always whole bunch of people smoking around you and you're so unemployed that you have to pick up fermented garbage to eat, don't you think those're called smoking and drinking?

Oh yeah, you're right! I'm a smokaholic and an alcoholic because of them heart-poisonholic!

Friday, June 12, 2020

申冤

其實而家都幾好吖,冇得撈,翹埋雙手,靠個八十歲嘅老豆養,學校嗰度又搞到唔清唔楚,鍾意就坐地起價加啲乜費物費㩒住我嚟搶,想轉校又冇人收,唔覺意就俾啲電子武器假仔騷擾,扮吓愛我,唔覺意又俾佢哋遙距整到呢度痕嗰度痛,成身一噠噠癩,再唔喺又加啲癦加啲痣,俾人㩒住嚟攪冇得反抗,仲日日晚晚俾人攪下面做免費雞,擘大眼咩,冇人噃。啲鄰居陌生人鍾意就偷入嚟我屋企𥄫吓我偷吓嘢攪吓破壞,連錄影防盜嗰部機都俾人鍾意停就停,鍾意skip就skip,個網絡同電掣鍾意俾人停就停,電子器材鍾意俾人hack就hack,我嚮屋企已經有人喺天花板上面周圍擗擗啪啪, 出街一唔睇住個屋企,就俾人開燈刪燈撬門𠽤嚦隔嘞,連天花板都有兩個大窿極有可能通向樓上隔離嘅鄰居同電機房,任人爬入我家的風險極大。鍾意又爬入我露台破壞整爛整死偷我啲植物順便入埋屋。食物俾人放蟲,皮膚俾假蚊咬,個鼻對眼個頭隨時俾人整痕整痛流晒水咁,鍾意又加吓我水噗,鍾意又整痛我啲骨關節喉嚨內臟,鍾意又整到我甩成咋頭髮,仲要冚唪唥都喺珍貴嘅黑髮,應脫嗰啲毛又唔脫,唔應脫嗰啲毛就甩到一地都喺,四十幾歲啲白頭髮多到可以織冷衫,隨時攪到我昏迷不醒,一喺就不停嘈不停遙距咁搖整到我成晚瞓唔到,有時仲嚮假夢裡面引我暴露我啲密碼同個人資料, 佢哋認屎認屁扮明星扮特首扮我屋企人扮教授,仲話我詐騙,家陣唔知邊個詐騙呢?將自己做啲衰嘢推落我身上(projection), 戾橫折曲, 傷害無辜,我已經攪成咁仲嫌我唔夠衰再攪衰啲。將呢個武器擺我身上同有份害我嗰啲人應該拉去打靶,唔打靶就遙距咁嚮火湖見佢哋啦。話口未完,啱啱又洗咗我啲嘢要我從新打過,未講完,啲聲音同周圍啲人鍾意又評論吓我自己一個嘅時候撩眼耳口鼻屎屙屎用幾多格廁紙,鍾意又評論吓我啲屎屁有幾臭,踭在未講顏色,有時整到我肚屙,有時整到我尿頻同不停放屁,有時又整到我瀨尿,我同屋企人朋友私底下嘅說話都要俾佢哋知公開同評論,仲有網上網下乜資料都偷我嘅, 鍾意又宣佈吓我網上睇啲乜,鍾意就嚮我睇緊啲片度用人哋把聲加鹽加醋講大話,鍾意又郁我啲手腳,鍾意又整啲假夢嚟誣衊我,我俾人害完,有人會話我抵死,又話佢哋想我生cancer想我死, 鍾意又嚮街圍住我點煙食煙,鍾意又撞我個胸摸我籮柚,仲試過故意整瘀我可能想整斷我啲骨, 武器真人都一樣咁賤格,啲臭男人自己起痰又屈我鍾意佢,我連佢個樣都未睇清楚喺乜水,說話都講唔夠十句,有啲我從來都冇睬佢,結咗婚仲話要追,陷我不義毀我名譽,我以後仲洗出嚟行嘅?喺啲火遙距咁見你哋啦燒豬!
Actually I am living a good life, umemployed, arms folded and wait for my 80-year-old dad to provide for me. The school has been giving me unclear message, add this fee and that fee anytime anywhere as they wish and I can only obey. I want to change school but nobody wants me. The fake guys in the psychotronic weapon disturb me, pretend to love me, make me itchy here and painful there, give me scars everywhere on my body, put moles on my body. They manipulate my body and life and I have no way to defend myself. Every day and night I act like a free hooker and get electronically raped. When I open my eyes, nobody is there. My neighbors and random strangers just come and go into my home without my consent, they spy on me, steal and damage my belongings and sometimes money. Even the security device can be stopped anytime they want, it selectively record whatever happens at my place. The internet and the power outlets just being stopped and skipped anytime they want. My electronics are hacked as they wish. When I am home people keeps clicking everywhere in the ceiling. When I go out or not watching my home closely, the lights are switched on and off, the door is opened with tools or random people even have easy access for some reason and making noises. Even the ceiling is a possible route for people to get into my home, there are two big holes in my fake ceiling and it is possibly to be connected to my neighbors upstairs and next door and the electrical room. They put bugs in my food, they give me fake mosquito bites. They make my eyes, nose, head sore and itchy with fluid coming out.they put pustles on my skin, they give me pain in my bones, joints, throat and organs, they make me lose whole bunch of hair, mostly valuable dark healthy ones,  the hair that is supposed to be removed they do not remove, the ones that is supposed to stick on my head is all over the floor. I am in my 40's but I have so much gray that I can knit a sweater with it. They can make me pass out, and sometimes they make noises and shake me so much that I cannot sleep for the whole nights. They even force virtual reality clips into my brain to create fake dreams and make me expose my passwords and personal information. They pretend to be celebrities, chief executives, my professors and families to lie to me and steal my information and they say I am a fraud. I am wondering who is the real fraud? They are basically just projecting their crimes on me, twisting the truth and harming the innocent. My life is already a big mess and they are trying to make it messier. I think the person who put this weapons on me and the ones who use them to attack me deserve death penalties. Well if they do not want it, I will see them in the lake of fire from a distance. Well, here they come again and delete what I have just typed and I have to retype it all over again. I have not finished yet, those voices from the weapons and the people around me are commenting on what I do when I am all by myself, they talk about when do I pick my eye and my nose boogers and ear wax, they comment on how much toilet paper I use when I poop, they talk about how stinky my farts and poops are, again in my all-by-myself-time. They have not mentioned about the color though, because I do not look that it. They sometimes give me diarrhea, urinary frequency, unstoppable farts, they even make me pee myself. They have to know, announce and comment on whatever I talk about with my family and friends in our private times. They announce what I watch on the internet, they steal my personal information on and off the internet, they use other people's voices on the whatever I was watching to lie, step on me or try to make me sad. They move my limbs remotely, use some fake dreams to frame me and slander me. When I lose something or somebody wrongs me, they have a voice to tell me I deserve it. They say that they want to give me cancer and want me to die. On the street people surround me, light up and smoke cigarettes, they touch my chest and bottom and sometimes they literally bruise my body or even try to break my bones. The psychotronic weapons and the people in real life are both so wicked and dirty. Some guys think and tell people that I like them when actually they are the ones who fantasize about me. I do not know how exactly they look like and I have not even talked to them for more than 10 sentences. Lots of them I totally ignore. They say they want to chase after me even they are married, they are just trying to ruin my reputation and my future. How can I establish my career and have a good marriage when you spread rumors like that. Anyway, again, see you in the fire from a distance, roast pigs.

Saturday, June 6, 2020

喳咋

I told someone if he bought me butter egg rolls, chocolates and ice-cream I will forgive him. But suddenly I did not think I could forgive him anymore so I took the risk of possibly eating garbage soon and bought them myself today. But he has never given me even a penny since the beginning, why did I even tell him that?
我同佢講如果佢買朱古力, 蛋卷同埋雪糕俾我食我就會原諒佢, 但喺我突然覺得佢罪無可恕所以我今日冒住好快要食垃圾嘅危險自己買咗。不過其實佢由頭到尾一毫子都冇俾過我佢又點會買嘢俾我食吖, 我嗰陣講嚟都多餘嫁。

甜牙

今日買咗好多零食好開心, 一返嚟就喺咁趙, 不過我呢個狀態唔可以維持好耐, 如果我繼續買好快又要食垃圾, 正所謂一剎那嘅光輝唔代表永恆, 於是我同自己講我下次唔敢喇, 或者下下下次啦!睇嚟我都要開始準備我對我八十歲老豆嘅零食錢說服演講詞, 等佢有個心理準備同埋籌錢準備, 如果等到我開始食垃圾先準備就會太遲。
Today I bought lots of snacks and my action made me very happy. I started stuffing them down my throat the second I came home. But I cannot maintain this lifestyle for too long. If I keep on buying I will have to start eating garbage again very soon. Happiness does not last. So I told myself do not do that again next time, maybe next next next time. Maybe I should start drafting my negotiation speech to my 80-year-old daddy for snack money. So that he can prepare psychologically and financially for my snack fund raising. If I wait until I start eating garbage then it will be to late for him to prepare.

做雞

冇辦法啦,既然佢哋唔俾我靠自己,唯有靠男人啦。
Prostitution Prosperity

Friday, May 29, 2020

鍊仙

我成日都要挨肚餓
唔怪之咁有仙氣啦
我嚮騎樓食葉嗰陣
仲諗過騰雲試飛添
Starvation Salivation Salvation?

Sunday, May 17, 2020

家園

其實我鍾意食蛋糕
不過天橋底冇焗爐
This  is  just a joke
老豆交租我唔洗露宿
有涼沖個身唔會太餿
某程度上我都幾幸福
雖然前途生死都未卜
冇錢交學費妄想買屋
癲得好勻循唔掂死谷
差啲俾阿嬋斬開九碌

Saturday, May 16, 2020

獻世

一個反叛期接近更年期嘅中年女人捱咗咁多年,唔想再捱喇! 唔知冇仔女冇老公享唔享到清福嘅呢?真喺冇陰功,已經無兒無女無工無老公,連啱啱夠買個木箱嘅棺材本都俾人偷,咁嚟害個阿婆,仲俾嗰D污糟嘢挍到又痕又痛冇撻好肉,連思想都要俾人監察控制,折墮囉! 唔知我D人權去曬邊呢?唔知我仲算唔算喺人呢? 唔洗舉頭三尺呀,周圍都有上帝睇住佢哋做衰嘢嫁!
Boo Me! A middle aged woman who is still in the middle of rebellious period and closed to menopause. I don't want to suffer anymore, I've had enough. I'm just wondering if I can live a comfy life without children, husband nor income. The worse thing is the money just enough to buy my coffin is stolen, so if you see my dead body on the street, don't be surprised. Those psycho attackers even add to it and make me itchy and painful with bumpy spotty skin. They even monitor my thoughts and completely remove my human rights. Am I still a human being? I'm so confused. But God is watching, so I think I'll be alright eventually when I go to Heaven.

Friday, May 15, 2020

迫我

我住緊嗰幢毫宅。。。好窄
The mansion I am living in.......do not even mention it.......narrow burrow burial

Saturday, May 2, 2020

最窮

She does grocery shopping
You do luxury shopping
He does photoshopping
I do window shopping

Tuesday, October 1, 2019

好慶

12 hours of physical tortures in my stomach and guts
The devil used psychotronic tortures to drive me nuts
Wasting  of  limited food through my mouth and butt
I have lost so much because of them that must be cut
九月三十日九時十五分至九國慶日九時左右
我個胃部被精神電子攻擊十二小時劇痛屙嘔
浪費我僅有的食物時間金錢亦把我健康搶走
我祈求此武器從宇宙中毀滅並制裁幕後黑手

Sunday, September 8, 2019

好人

如果你自己都唔夠錢洗,而佢有錢過你,仲問你借咗又用手段搶咗你一大筆錢,用大部份錢留俾自己享受,然後用一部份錢嚟買起你同請人虐待你家人同嚟你屋企攪破壞你會點?
Waiting for God